So, it’s been a while since my last blog post. Life happened, sorry.
I have been unemployed since February 2017 when the company I worked for downsized. I lost my 10-year job one fine Thursday morning. I remember the boss trying to find the right words to break it to me while I was staring at the glorious bright blue sky outside the office’s giant windows and knowing that the Lord has answered my question of whether I should stay or move on. It was a day of mixed emotions – relieved that I did not have to tender my resignation, sad that I wasn’t brave enough to make the decision myself, and excited to find my self outside the limitations of the corporate world.
Being unemployed is a blessing not easily recognizable because it goes against the grain of what we consider as a blessing – that is, something that is conducive to happiness. Not having a steady source of income is definitely not going to give you happiness. But, looking beyond the paycheck, you will recognize the many layers of hidden blessings that come with that official “last-day-at-work”:
- You begin to appreciate the smaller bills in your wallet. You become more cautious of spending that you now only spend for things that you really need or absolutely want. No purchases that end up piled with other “i-might-need-this-extra-staple-wire-remover-in-the-future” box. Only happy purchases happen.
- You get to spend more time doing nothing – and by nothing, I refer to activities you do that do not bring you stress – like over-sleeping by 10minutes or taking a full 20-song playlist bath time or just sitting at the coffee table with your mobile phone in hand.
- You begin to discover what truly matters for you. Ran out of coffee beans? Instant coffee will do for a day.
- You see your family off in the morning, and you are there to welcome them back when they return. You are there to give them the warm hug they do not know they need until they get one.
- You learn who your real friends are
- You find out more about yourself and what you are capable of.
- You spend more time talking to God. You call on Him because you need to know that He is looking after you. You call on Him so that you will feel comfort and confident that even if you are unemployed, He will be providing for you without fail.
Yes, I lost my job, but I did not lose my passion. In fact, since that fine Thursday morning, I have figured out that there is so much more that I can do. There’s so much to learn about my capabilities and my limitations – that it still catches me off-guard. This is bound to be a journey that will be worth more than the 10-year stint in one place.
If you are going through a similar season right now, know that you are not alone. Much more, know that this is a season when you will see how the Lord is directing your path towards where He wants you to go and where you should be. Keep the faith and keep moving forward!